Need help dealing with transgender feelings using a bio-energetic aproach
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Yep. Men are hardwired to express anger and horniness. Other emotions are unusual and awkward coming from a man and signal that you are deeply disturbed / something is deeply wrong such as clinical depression or other illness or major hormone inbalance or mental instability or mental breakdown or poisoning or hypothyroidism.
A good psychologist (not psychiatrist) is recommended. Friendships to get joy out of rather than constantly sharing negativity with each other (fake it if you have to). All sorts of bloodwork is necessary for these conditions. Many overcome strange sexual passions by praying.
Do not despair. "Homosexual" members of the Amish and Mennonites are supported by their communities to overcome this challenge and many have wifes and children. Same with Mormons. As an example of real world.
High estrogen in your tissues could be causing strange sexually related issues. Low dose one milligram a day methylene blue and topical progesterone, starting with high dose to tolerate estrogen flushing out of system, are good.
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@lobotomize-me I am jealous of multiple things. Mostly their bodies not being ugly like mine. I don't like the way I smell, having facial and body hair, how rough my skin is, having a high hairline, ect. Puberty was very traumatic for me and 99% of the changes that came with it I don't like. I find the male body frankly disgusting in nearly every way. I also envy their ability to be social and not be punished for expressing their feelings and the fact there is more socially acceptable personality types among women than men. If I were female I would not be seen as an anti social freak like I am now. As for anxiety, yes that is a major issue for me.
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@orgon As nice of an idea as that sounds I think lobotomize-me is likely right, I think getting a gf and telling her that would just weird her out and cause her to leave
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@basebolt "Men are hardwired to express anger and horniness. Other emotions are unusual and awkward coming from a man and signal that you are deeply disturbed / something is deeply wrong such as clinical depression or other illness or major hormone inbalance or mental instability or mental breakdown or poisoning or hypothyroidism."
I hate this, this is one of my main issues I have with being male. I used to have more emotions that I could express in a healthy way when I was a kid. I feel like every man is partly sedated and blocked off from his emotions by androgens. Steroid users report the same thing basically only being able to be angry to an even greater degree. Male puberty turned me into an otherwise emotionless angry robot.
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@Cytomeldevourer What is your PQ-9 questionnaire score? Maybe a big issue to tackle is moderate clinical depression and this questionnaire will help assess this.
Joe Hudson, an elite psychologist, has videos online that poor mood is related to a. repressed anger or sometimes repressed sadness. b. negative self-talk c. nervous system constantly active d. lack of community, feelings of disconnected.
or a medical issue.
Alexithymia, a common trait in men associated with inability to identify your emotions, could be going on. Maybe try and figure out all the things bothering you and express these emotions at God.
Develop positive self-talk self-worth.
Enjoy the deep pleasure of everyday things. Everything.
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@basebolt I scored 20 while taking it. Said 20 or over is indicative of severe depression.
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@Cytomeldevourer Well, it's good to know. Sometime people can be very depressed without realizing it, as it can come on slowly. Get your circadian rhythm in check. Attempt twenty pushups and squats daily.
Doctors usually test for thyroid and iron deficiency and enemia and b12 deficiency I think. Standard bloodwork too.
Peatsphere recomends TSH, T4, T3. Free T4 and free T3 may not matter too much according to Peat if remembering correctly. Even if labs are good, T3 therapy can yield very positive results with depression, including treatment resistant.
There are many iron tests, the main one is serum ferritin, but isn't perfect as inflammation can artificially raise it such as a workout the day before testing.
As for B12, there is controversy about the correct way to test it. May be best to just take some. I've got five pages of notes on B12 therapy. The summary is this.
Cyanocobalamin is extremely safe and the cheapest. People routinely inject milligrams of it. Injections are expensive and probably unnecessary because you can safely take massive doses of cyanocobalamin orally. 500 mg, about 1/16 of a teaspoon of powder, is good to try for a week or two. This will ensure you raise brain levels in order to see if it corrects something. SloWLy build to that dose over a few days, testing it out. Try holding in mouth before swallowing. No longer than two weeks because that is unnecessary risk. You will know if were deficient quicky, I think. More than 500 mg starts becoming concerning and is really not necessary. The major thing to look out for is low blood pressure and hypokalemia which can be fatal but there isn't much evidence for that and just in case drink some orange juice or milk with the B12 to keep potassium level good. Bulk Suppements brand cyano is probably good purity according to some reports. The methylcobalamin form of B12 can theoretically hurt your epigenome according to a theory put forward by Travis on RPF. There are other concerns about it. Folinic acid, not folic acid, synergizes very well with B12 in the body, this is very clear based on many studies and high quality anecdotes. Same strategy as B12, a short week or two trial of a tolerable high dose. 15 mg a day probably is good. Higher is okay. You can buy liquid drops of folinic acid for getting high doses. Taking any amount longterm can become problematic due to theoretical hyperexcitability, Peat's concerns about impurities, and a theory put forward by Chris Masterjohn PhD on folates and folate balance.
Lithium can have anti-suicidal properties. This is very important. Sometimes an antidepressant increases energy and the person ends up k*lling themselves. Important to know. 0.1 mg to 1 mg of any of the forms. 6 mg lithium chloride is 1 mg elemental lithium. The mineral at this dose occurs naturally in spring waters around the globe.
Do you have pen and paper around? Grab it. Sit and think. Write down twenty reasons to be hopeful.
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@Cytomeldevourer What's your diet like? Do you have regular bowel movements? Do you take any drugs or supplements?
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@basebolt Do you really believe men feeling anything other than anger or horniness is indicative of a healthy male?
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@basebolt as i said before, progesterone is a good way to feminize someone physically and mentally. instead of that i will reommend
@Cytomeldevourer said in Need help dealing with transgender feelings using a bio-energetic aproach:
I feel like every man is partly sedated and blocked off from his emotions by androgens
Androgens don't block off emotions high stress hormones does (i have been in the same spot as you, i thought the same thing up until recently when i fixed a lot of metal toxicity and other stuff). Androgens cause novelty seeking and playful behavior
@Cytomeldevourer said in Need help dealing with transgender feelings using a bio-energetic aproach:
Steroid users report the same thing basically only being able to be angry to an even greater degree. Male puberty turned me into an otherwise emotionless angry robot.
this happens because they are also extremely high on estrogen a stress hormone and probably some other
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@Cytomeldevourer the most beutiful faces bodies/faces are extremly close to androgynous (50/50 masculine feminine) for men and females.
@Cytomeldevourer said in Need help dealing with transgender feelings using a bio-energetic aproach:
. I find the male body frankly disgusting in nearly every way.
i believe this is a exaggeration, but it is normal as you should biologically be attracted to females not males. but as i said before, the most attractive humans are borderline on both genders. for example, a extremely masculine guy like jason mamoa which wants to be more attractive will opt to have long hair which is feminine etc.
@Cytomeldevourer said in Need help dealing with transgender feelings using a bio-energetic aproach:
I also envy their ability to be social and not be punished for expressing their feelings and the fact there is more socially acceptable personality types among women than men. If I were female I would not be seen as an anti social freak like I am now. As for anxiety, yes that is a major issue for me.
Females are often in constant hypomanic cycles due to estrogen, so anxiety and social isolation got normalized, as well as extreme extroversion.
Males have higher dht and testosterone in general so it is assumed from them to have enough self confidence to have a stable frame.
but in the last decades we are being constantly fed cattle hormones plant hormones, metals etc . Which raised men's estrogen, lowered their testosterone and raised their estrogen. Which caused men to act more like women think like women and appreciate woman more as inside their hormone profile is of a woman although on the outside they are men
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are your balls hot often / do you have a varicocele?
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@lobotomize-me No to both of those
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@NoeticJuice When I say it was traumatic I mean in the later stages of puberty it felt like my body was being ruined. I don't like having lots of body hair I find it makes me look gross and dirty and it grows back too fast to shave it regularly without going through tons of razors. My skin is rough, my brow ridge is very prominent, ect. I miss having a small frame and soft skin like I did when I was younger. Also although I do not believe I'm balding as it hasn't progressed for several years my hairline did recede somewhat.
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@Cytomeldevourer seems more like nostalgia if your young feminine self. Do you find it hot or a turn on to imagine yourself as a transgender or do you just want and feel like it will fit you better?
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@lobotomize-me I used to when I was a young teen but since quitting porn not anymore. I was very disappointed when I realized it wasn't just AGP as that would have been easy to fix. I mostly just think I would feel more comfortable in a more feminine body and people probably would be more trusting of me and I would come off as less creepy and weird. I frankly find masculine men repulsive. I remember since I was young not wanting to look like my dad even though that was inevitable given he's my father and I have half his genes.
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@Cytomeldevourer . 1. It's very common for people to look completely different from their parents.
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It's normal for a guy to not be attracted to masculine men.
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It seems like you're trying to fit in, and you believe the only way to do that is by becoming a woman.
Regarding the part of your message about not liking your masculine body: I think this might be because you never had a masculine father figure (i get this assumption because you mentioned you never wanted to look like your father) . Perhaps you saw your mother receive certain benefits and expected the same for yourself. When society didn't grant you those benefits because you are male, you became distraught with your situation.
Is your mother a social gal. Did you see her socialise often?
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@lobotomize-me I never wanted to look my father because he was so masculine looking. Like borderline neanderthal. I don't look quite as masculine as him but pretty close. I'm sure as I get older this will continue. My dad wasn't a great father figure but I didn't like my mom much either tbh. As for her being social I guess but not much more than my father or anyone else in my family. Never really clinged especially to her either. By the time I was a teenager I disliked them both although I disliked my dad more because he would often make fun of me and was easily made angry by small things. Most of my jealousy towards women I would say happened by seeing them in school and also how much nicer my sister was treated by my parents.
