Ayahuasca saps vitality and it made me not crazy anymore?
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I don't know where else to post about this, but I used to be highly neurotic and narcissistic until about 1.5yrs ago I took a small amount of ayahuasca. It didn't do much at all. It was pretty cool, I smoked cigs in a hotel room and hung out with some old peruvian commies until like 5am.
The next morning I just realized "oh wait... I just solve all my problems in life?"
Then I just sucked up my ego and solved all of my problems.
It sounds too good to be true, and I'm sure this is highly specific to me, since all of my problems were because I was afraid to admit defeat in many different fields and do the hard work to fix my life financially, physically, socially, etc.
I have just gotten 5% more "chill" and now I'm not dysfunctional? I'm not trying to be a well-adjusted/funciton human being, I just am?
Does RaypEat ever talk about hallucinogens? I never did any other hallucinogens except that small amount of Ayahuasca in 2022.
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@Aryan_Racist I too had a similarly positive, though mild, experience. I think that Aya is likely a net positive for well adjusted folks, given sufficient time between trips. Ray was often citing the fact that in actual psychedelic doses, the serotonergic binding action is net stressful/excitotoxic, but, imo, the average person will experience so many excitotoxic episodes in their daily life, avoiding the occasional heroic dose due to this, is missing the point.
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@Aryan_Racist This is usually the case when you don't fight the experience, are relaxed, and willing to humbled. A lot of the bad psychedelic stories are people who aren't able to calm themselves down and fight the experience, sort of a slave to their own mind and negative thoughts. This is why having an exceptionally good trip sitter is able to alter the experience into the right direction. Some experiences are tough and a battle, but there's a difference between battling with yourself over your problems and going completely psychotic and becoming a danger to yourself or others because the experience is too intense for you.
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@Sugar @Cristiano yeah I didn't even want to do it, but I feel it permanently "stole" a fraction of my mental energy, which was likely excessive and leading me to become too egotistical to admit I fucked a lot of things up and needed help.
I think psychedelics can help those people who create their own issues by being too narcissistic to admit defeat, and those who try too hard and aspire to things that are well beyond their reach, and beat themselves up for not getting there. If someone is a stoner who aspires to nothing, then ayahuasca might NOT help
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I got into LSD when I was in high school and I swear it made me significantly less autistic, permanently, over the course of several trips.
Also really interesting effect where it “resets” my taste in many things. I generally listen to Metal but after a trip I usually find myself preferring more relaxed music for several weeks until external stressors ramp up again. It definitely has a balancing effect on the brain.
Bad trips usually happen to people who are too obsessed with being in control and/or approach the experience the wrong way. I’ve never had a bad trip and now that I’m used to LSD I can go in public on it easily without making a scene or drawing attention to myself.
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@saturnuscv are you diagnosed sperg or just had autistic traits? I wish lsd/shrooms would have done something for my tism but no such luck. Even moderate doses of psychedelics can be unpleasant for me cause they ramp up the sensory issues.
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@Barghest I’m diagnosed as “probably on the spectrum but not easily classified as autistic” according to a clinical psychologist. I could dig up the official report I suppose if anyone is interested. Granted, this diagnosis came after several doses of LSD and a year or so after my initial dose and by that point I was already less autistic, in my opinion.