Ever since puberty, I have been erotically fixated with rubenesque women with giant breasts and bellies. These are not the only type of women I am attracted to, and when I've attempted to fulfill the fantasy IRL it has not been pleasant, but for porn it has always been my go-to. However, in the past year plus of seriously peating, my interest in bbw's has steadily disappeared. In fact when I do watch porn (which is also increasingly rare) I tend to go to the bbw section out of habit, however I am not excited by the prospects and choose to watch a slim woman or use my memory instead. This was not something I thought much of, however this week I went on a vacation to the American south with my girlfriend (not fat). I realized that I had a choice between being unhealthy and being a bad boyfriend, so needless to say I ate a lot of PUFA slop. One morning, after eating an exceptionally anti-metabolic and serotonergic dinner of fried chicken which left me vomiting only two hours after consumption, I awoke with a strong and highly specific compulsion: I needed to jack off to one of my favorite bbws. So I did. I ran into the bathroom and jacked off to a huge fat woman getting fucked by a short chubby latino while my girlfriend lay asleep in our bed. While doing so, I made the obvious connection between the food I ate and my renewed and intense attraction to corpulent women. Needless to say this has motivated me even more to stay on the peaty path. Any other peaters have a similar experience?
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Peating cured my bbw fetish
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RE: Extreme temperature exposure--any good?
@Truth What are the positive and negative effects though?
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RE: Extreme temperature exposure--any good?
@Growtallerpast25 to be fair I drank a lot of water as well...
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Extreme temperature exposure--any good?
What's the consensus on extreme temperature exposure and its effects? The common belief is that these things are good for you--which seems to be derived from intuition/the good feeling you get from the dopamine/adrenaline/norepinephrine boost--but what are all the implications?
Yesterday I went to a russian bathhouse and alternated between going to the saunas/steam room (infrared, wood burning, steam) and taking a cold plunge. I would stay in the saunas for about 5-10 minutes (depending on comfort), and the cold plunge for exactly a minute, and did this 3 times. I also spent some time in a pool and in a hot tub. Today I feel awful--my muscles are extremely sore, I'm exhausted, brain fogged and my sleep was disrupted by pain in my lower back/legs. Granted I also got pretty drunk on russian beer shortly after this routine, and I know dehydration exacerbated these effects, but this does not feel like any normal hangover. It's as if I did a full body workout while being severely beaten by a russian with a rolling pin.
What are the Peaty thoughts on this? I can imagine that such sudden exposure to extreme temperatures would cause a spike in cortisol and possibly promote inflammation, but what are the benefits? I remember Ray saying that epidermal exposure to cold can increase metabolic rate (as in the more surface area of skin exposed the higher the response), but is this at the cost of a harmful hormonal response? Or did I just drink too much
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RE: Why do you believe in God?
I would not say that I believe in god as per religion, however there are times when I am in nature, and I look to a vast mountainous landscape or a small pond adorned with lilies and I can't help but feel that god does exist, that some creative force had to have designed all of this. It's too beautiful to be an accident--but if it is an accident then that's ok as well : )
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RE: Open discussion on walking
"Sit as little as possible; do not believe any idea that was not born in the open air and of free movement — in which the muscles do not also revel… Sitting still… is the real sin against the Holy Ghost." - Nietzsche
Kant was famous for his walks. Hume wrote that when he would become overwhelmed by doubt and fear by the magnitude of what he was attempting and the possibility of him being wrong, he would go on a walk, spend a little time with friends, and return confident in his work. Thoreau has a book on walking, but I haven't read it. Stimulation of the body stimulates the mind, but the serenity particular to walking seems to produce special effects. I always feel better after a long walk--if nothing else its a good reminder that all you really need are your own two feet. When I was in a very bad place, I wrote down, as a rule: "if you feel like you need someone, go for a walk" and it always worked. In fact, I think I'll go for one now.