ADHD, Severe fatigue, digestion problems etc..

i know it seems like im doing everything super chaotic but my mind works in strange ways and its hard to explain what im really doing to people, even though i see the results myself and my life gets better

i dont know why the fuck i suddenly went manic and did the whole vegan thing before I already did this the exact same time last year and fucking rekt my health...

@Kilgore

isn't milk estrogenic

milk makes me feel fucking manic

ok wait you make zero fucking sesne you tell me im an a adult but now you tell me to eat food for baby cows. wat

why should i not go to sleep tonight and drop out of this reality

what am i on this earth to do i don't get it. whats the point staying here.

@Kilgore

ok so you dont think heavy metals can cause manic thinking and problems with thinking like what i have now

because wtf else can it be

@Kilgore

but i dont need to explain my thinking to anyone

well holy shit

last night I pickaxed the garden

Woke up today not feeling completely destroyed. Euphoric even. This 'Peating' stuff does work. Im eating just potatoes and coconuts for now as that is all I can eat and feel good and energetic

face looks less bloated! slimmer! yes! Always feel good when my face is slim

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some days still feel like trying to stuff chickens back into a box but the chickens are your thoughts

feels better slowly though. really good stuff.

I wonder if ADHD is just about brain energy. and thats it. nothing else. Just do everything to increase energy no matter what. cause I can try force things but you just need to feel good and energetic to do things at the end of the day

people say adhd is just a migraine in the front part of the brain but the front part doesnt feel pain so i mean??? and you need your front brain for 'human' things. scary stuff man

going through life like an NPC. its important we learn ways to help people with this sort of stuff...

I'm not sure if raising metabolism can truly help with this sort of stuff

can you really reverse brain damage. how the fuck do you learn to socialise after being addicted to a computer for 8 years. what.

Kilgore

@questforhealth

@questforhealth said in ADHD, Severe fatigue, digestion problems etc..:

I'm not sure if raising metabolism can truly help with this sort of stuff

can you really reverse brain damage. how the fuck do you learn to socialise after being addicted to a computer for 8 years. what.

It will take a long time to reverse the damage but it is reversible. Do you have any hobbies or anything you do in a social environment?

@Kilgore

I do gardening and thats it. Read about botany and science. Try my best to keep the brain occupied. Learn about nature hopefully to teach future generations some time in the future. I don't know why but botany stuck to me somehow because i thouht plants are important for our earth.

you know when it got really bad last year I volunteered in parks around my town because I could literally only talk to old people my brain was that fucked. Had to stop studying and everything. Never did anything social ever since a child. Don't know why never had the interest in it or energy which is strange.

I remember feeling a deep sense of embarrassment, shame and anxiety since a young age. This is from mercury poisoning.... seems like odd symptoms but it can do that to someone

@Kilgore

ALSO heavy metals are estrogenic on top. jesus christ. I have a pretty masculine face so if even having a masculine mother can't save you from this bullshit what can. holy shit. it's really bad. even if your development in the womb was ok, lol get fucked nah too bad screwed for life

Kilgore

@questforhealth
Well you should find something where you're around people. Only you can bring change and it will not happen if you dont get out of your comfort zone and meet people. Don't expect them to show up in your garden. Keeping your brain occupied with stuff outside of the internet is very important if you had adhd. Keep doing that.

You shouldn't worry too much about heavy metals now. You are detoxing from it and getting better. It good that you understand your condition and trying to better it but worrying about it all the time just induces more stress to your life that you could avoid. Have you eaten a carrot today?

Kilgore

@questforhealth Whetever happend happened you can only look to the future now.

I can't eat carrots or milk they make me hypothyroid and worsen my digestion

I find eating coconuts and potatoes helps me most still for now. I might try grass fed meat but not yet.

why does dumping heavy metals make me so rude and toxic, I swear heavy metals must cause violence

maybe one day when i get enough heavy metals out the system its going to feel like coming out of a bad trip. not sure.

also did anyone find they care less about certain thigns with peating, almost feel like a few cows would be worth more than anything in this world but could be wrong...

nah man wtf is there any point trying anything in life past a certain point

shti keeps getting worse

thinking gets worse

fatigue gets worse

absolutely fucked brain

@ThinPicking Is there any point to all this? Wtf is the point? No seriously wtf is the point?

i'll maybe try the heavy metal stuff and give that a few months to work but if that doesnt work and i continue to feel drained of energy WTF am I meant to do???

Am i spiritually possesed? cursed? genetic dead end? WTF is going on?