Inability to look inward severe OCD
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As of currently my dad is a narcissist who takes stimulants and my mom is emotionless zombie from her SSRI intake.
It is important I mention they are both hypo although my mom might not be anymore.
My parents have always followed the mainstreams health advice so it is no surprise I have turned out a very unhealthy kid.
Although I do not blame them they just did what they thought was best.
"The road to hell is paved by good intentions"
Is a quote I can relate to not only to my parents but to my OCD.
My OCD has a good intention of keeping me safe and doesn't want me to feel anything negative. So it sends me thoughts about things I need to do to be safe and avoid pain. But trying to keep up with this is a hellish life filled with stress unsatisfaction guilt and shame.
Although I do think the cause of my OCD was inorganic that of my many childhood vaccinations and psychiatric medications which I now no longer intake I do wonder if it is a curse of the virtuous.
My Mom rarely acknowledges the troubles in out day to day life and thinks it is best to not think of them.
It is like when a ostrich sticks there head in the sand to avoid a storm.
Yet my mom must have forgotten the calm after the storm.
I have constantly tried to convince my parents to not follow the mainstreams advice but they wont listen to me because I am mentally unstable. I tell them We are victims and they surely must view me as the bear the bear of bad news. They tell me all these issues only effect me because I choose to think about them, that I'm getting in my own way. -
@gg12 no one will listen to a loser who self identifies with a mental illness so much they personalize and take ownership of it by calling it "my"
your mom is a chad for saying not to think about "all le troubles"
ostriches live 30-40 years in the wild, which is pretty good for a bird.
you won't convince anyone of anything in this state
I know all this because im 100% engaging in top tier projections
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You have too much time to think. Your day should be so busy with productive things to do that you don't have time to think about these things or doom scroll on the web. You should be so tired at night that you go to bed, sleep and be ready for the next day.
I know this to be true, I'm old, my parents were WWII traumatized so don't think I had it easy.