I'm 17 I have ocd, low testosterone and sleep apnea which I will get jaw surgery to fix in a couple years. (possible hypo too)
My dad and mom are both hypo and my family is the average drone of the totalirian regime(satire).
They believe all the mass media has to say and eat le pufa and feed them to me and siblings.
Although I do not blame them it is understandable that it is easy to become blind nowadays when access to outside media is very limited.
I often get scared and sad and hopeless like my family is doomed to die among the plebs.
Breathing in whatever metals are spayed in the air as we sleep and being in our entertainment pods not speaking to each other....
However for however much I blame my family for my problems there is something to be said about my own personal merit.
I resent my mom for ignoring her problems and not doing anything about them but that is exactly what I hate in my self.
I hate my dad for pushing all his relationships away and telling himself that he is a failure but that is exactly what I do. Now again I do want to blame them for their shortcomings i.e. lack of critical thinking , apathetic about their health and what I just listed above but I do think we can heal together
Maybe this is the learned helpless or something.
I just need to win once.
I'm scared but I will be brave.
I'm trying to get in touch with god too.
gg12
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I'm 17, New to this space I'm interested to learn more
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How do I not play the victim?
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RE: Bird Flu 2024/25
@Norwegian-Mugabe said in Bird Flu 2024/25:
They are putting the bird flu in our dairy products. They certainly will aim at white people. They also know that people who are aware of the cabal are big on dairy consumption.
So should I no longer eat dairy? How long until this is put into effect?
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RE: i will be next luigi mangioni one day
@the-MOUSE Nice, But why would you post this online..........
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RE: i will be next luigi mangioni one day
@the_black_jew Your the biggest troll on this website. Your no fun to talk to.
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RE: "Orthorexic Sequence" – My Personal Experience with OCD
@war4512 But is this fully physiological? You can take the supplements and have the diet. But will that really help you from stopping from over identifying with your thoughts?
Thats why I think you can train yourself to break the self destructive OCD thought loop. I haven't confirmed this yet but I am going to try before I really on crutches. -
Inability to look inward severe OCD
As of currently my dad is a narcissist who takes stimulants and my mom is emotionless zombie from her SSRI intake.
It is important I mention they are both hypo although my mom might not be anymore.
My parents have always followed the mainstreams health advice so it is no surprise I have turned out a very unhealthy kid.
Although I do not blame them they just did what they thought was best.
"The road to hell is paved by good intentions"
Is a quote I can relate to not only to my parents but to my OCD.
My OCD has a good intention of keeping me safe and doesn't want me to feel anything negative. So it sends me thoughts about things I need to do to be safe and avoid pain. But trying to keep up with this is a hellish life filled with stress unsatisfaction guilt and shame.
Although I do think the cause of my OCD was inorganic that of my many childhood vaccinations and psychiatric medications which I now no longer intake I do wonder if it is a curse of the virtuous.
My Mom rarely acknowledges the troubles in out day to day life and thinks it is best to not think of them.
It is like when a ostrich sticks there head in the sand to avoid a storm.
Yet my mom must have forgotten the calm after the storm.
I have constantly tried to convince my parents to not follow the mainstreams advice but they wont listen to me because I am mentally unstable. I tell them We are victims and they surely must view me as the bear the bear of bad news. They tell me all these issues only effect me because I choose to think about them, that I'm getting in my own way. -
RE: "Orthorexic Sequence" – My Personal Experience with OCD
@war4512
I suffer with OCD as well. I know part of it is physiological but part of it seems to fall in m own hands with how I react to my thoughts. I have let my OCD grow in the unconscious for far too long and have had manic states lately. I am surrounded b people in poor health. My family just follows the massmedias agenda eating PUFA getting shots etc. I try to stay healthy but the food supply is so poor and my obsessive thinking doesnt help. I have heard of somatic illiness and I wonder if thats what OCD does sometimes. I do worry my OCD is a sign of a serious endocrine problem but I also know OCD loves to try and look for ways to protect you.
"The road to hell is paved by good intentions "
Is a good qoute for describing western medicine and OCD.
Western medicine people go into the profession to help people. But really they are just people who obey whatever they are told and are gaslighted into thinking they are helping people.
OCD on the other hand wants to keep you to not feel any pain and keep you safe 24/7 so it always trys to give you something to worry about but really it just drives hellish stressful living trying to keep up withing being safe or not feeling pain.
I am only now starting to acknowledge it but I am going to try my best to learn to live with it. Part of my decline into this manic states is because I convinced my parents to let me stop taking the ssris. Which all psychiatric drugs are poisons and crutches and never solve anything. Sadly from 14-17 I was on them but now I am free. I do know one person who had a brain surgery to treat there OCD. But I am going to try to treat it by retraining my brain and reverse engineering the problem. Function builds structure right even if its bad right? (obsessive thinking)
So I think Ill give it a shot in stopping it from continue to grow and strengthen and eventually rethread it. -
Depopulation agenda what is the long term goal?
So there is obviously a depopulation agenda.
endocrine disrupters, EMFs, PUFA, Chemtrails all these things that cause people to die and have to give a fat check to the healthcare system to live for a few more years.
But what is the goal keep only the best humans alive? Depopulation then repopulation? I don't understand the goal. Maybe its a resource thing and they don't have enough resource to enslave a huge population yet? Although it seems like they already have with all the sickness today. -
FDA approved BOVAER for dairy in the US (Its over)
https://www.dairyreporter.com/Article/2024/05/28/FDA-approves-Bovaer-for-use-in-US-dairy-cattle/#:~:text=Also known as 3-NOP,commercial launch in late 2024.
Welp were fucked it was a good run.
I guess we at least will have coconut but dairy was a major safe food source for me.
Milk Cheese Yogurt.
All that
Gone.
First they take away the sun, then they take away the dairy.
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RE: What do you guys think of Trump now that he won
@natureman This blew me away!
I honestly wouldn't be surprised its just the new world order mocking us. Trump is a false profit and not Christian.