Lobotomize-me athletic logs
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I'm here desperately seeking urgent help after thousands of unsuccessful changes. Below are details about my current situation:
Personal Information:
- Sport: Soccer (I previously said basketball in another post to conceal my identity, but I no longer care.)
- Age: 19 years old
- Education: Currently attending college.
Supplements in Supply:
- NAC
- Noopept
- ISRIB
- PRL-58
- L-Theanine
- Cordyceps extract (helps me sleep)
- Magnesium Complex and Magnesium Chloride
- Vitamin B Complex (I'll link it later)
- Copper
- Manganese 10 mg capsule
- Turmeric with Black Pepper Extract
- Vitamin C 1g mixed with Zinc 20mg
- Zinc Drops 1.5mg/drop
- Lion’s Mane (makes me serotonergic, so I stopped using it)
- Black Seed Oil Extract
- Molybdenum 150mg
- Vitamin E Complex 238mg per capsule
- Olive Leaf Extract
- DIY Iodized Casein (to mimic Thyroxine)
- Rhodiola Rosea
- Vitamin K Complex 4mg of each k
- DMSO
- Citicoline (CDP Choline) 500mg
- Nefiracetam
- Unifiram
- Pregnenolone (Life Extension)
- MCT Oil
- Gelatin
- Ginkgo Biloba
- Vitamin A Drops
- Vitamin D Drops
- Lugol’s Iodine Drops
- Creatine
- Bromelain
- More supplements I may have forgotten and will add later.
Hydration:
- I drink Reverse Osmosis filtered water.
Typical Daily Routine:
Training Days
Morning:
- Vitamin E Complex
- Olive Leaf Extract
- Vitamin B Complex
- Citicoline (recently realized I need to space this out)
- Orange Juice + Dextrose
- Pregnenolone mixed with DMSO (applied on wrists)
- Royal Jelly (30 mg 10-HDA) + Propolis
- Creatine
- Tyrosine (cycled recently)
- Ashwagandha mixed with Cayenne Pepper in boiling water + DMSO
- Magnesium Complex (sometimes Magnesium Chloride applied to testicles)
- Sunbathing (1 PM - 2 PM)
- Pure Cocoa Drink
- ¼ spoon of Iodized Casein
- L-Theanine (250 mg capsule, only if I have a game)
- Occasional testicle icing
- Brain training (RRT, 3D-MOT, UFOV) or research (usually about increasing testosterone, dopamine, DHT, and lowering estrogen, prolactin, etc.)
Note: Many of these habits are not feasible during the college semester.
Noon:
- Noopept (sublingual 2-4 mg)
- Additional Orange Juice with Sugar
- Vitamin C + Zinc Complex
- Coffee (200 mg caffeine)
- Vitamin K mixed with DMSO (applied to body)
- Additional small dose of Iodized Casein
- Testicle icing
- Aspirin occasionally
- Hypoventilation practice to increase CO2
During Training:
- Glucose/Dextrose mixed with water. Sometimes additional Iodized Casein if remembered.
Early Evening Meal:
- 4 eggs seasoned generously with stone salts
- Peas mixed with shrimp and onion
Night Routine:
- Gelatin
- 1 spoon of salt
- Cordyceps Extract
- Parsley (40 g) mixed with dmso, baking soda, and hot water to extract Apigenin
- Creatine
- Magnesium Chloride applied to testicles
- 5 Brazil Nuts (authentic ones)
- Possibly 1 drop of Lugol’s iodine on my arm
- Molybdenum supplement
- Zinc (30 mg dose; considered safe by Dr. Garrett)
Non-training Days:
- Similar supplement routine, except:
- No Noopept
- One large beef-based meal consumed in the morning (Bromelain supplement taken before the meal)
Social and Athletic Background:
- I believe I am fairly social, humorous, and comfortable in social settings, receiving attention from girls and respect from boys.
Current Athletic Situation:
- Despite gaining approximately 20 pounds since following Peating principles, I've now found an effective method for weight loss and have already lost about 4 pounds.
- Currently in the starting eleven for my team.
- On the field, my performance varies significantly:
- Most often: I perform terribly and robotically, but with brief moments of impressive creativity that surprise even me.
- Rarely: I have games where I play incredibly well.
- Off the pitch, I'm confident before and after games, but during games, I often feel emotionless, robotic, speak in a higher-pitched, less assertive voice, and make unnecessary mistakes.
Athletic Goals:
- I strongly believe I possess the necessary soccer abilities. My inconsistency seems primarily physical, as there are days when everything goes perfectly, and days when I struggle immensely.
Bad Habits:
Sometimes I indulge too much in PM.
Late nights: I usually prefer sleeping past midnight because I feel mentally better around that time (though during the college semester, this habit changes due to early classes).
Vocabulary:
Stupid mistakes = Extremely bad mistakes that are easily avoidable, such as missing an open goal or failing a simple pass.
PM: Porn and masturbation (without orgasm, as orgasm negatively impacts my parasympathetic system and increases amygdala activity).
These obstacles have brought me here, seeking your advice and guidance. I am willing to let you take control over my athletic career choices. I'll log my daily experiences and game performances here regularly, allowing you to draw helpful conclusions
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Game Day (7 days ago):
diet before match :
3 coffee
500 mg aspirin
dextrose /glucose
500 or 200 mg citocoline/cdp-choline + noopept
500 mg ltheanine
magnesium chlorid all over legs
(extra: night before i also took 27 grams of sweet basil)The game was scheduled at 12:00 PM, and I typically wake up at 11:00 AM.
Before the game, I felt good, confident, dominant, and was joking around comfortably with my teammates. However, during the warm-up, I suddenly lost all confidence and became quiet and emotionless.
When the game started, I immediately felt overwhelmed and played poorly, losing every ball and making continuous mistakes. It was going terribly, so I asked the coach to substitute me out temporarily. I requested to return after about 10 minutes, and the coach agreed. When I re-entered the game, I was placed in a position I had never played before because our defender was injured.
Despite the unfamiliar position, I played exceptionally well. I felt confident, dominant (what I can best describe as feeling "DHT dominant"), and controlled my half of the field effectively, and I was able to execute good plays.
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@lobotomize-me You are 19 and at peak youth hormone production. More than likely you are shooting yourself in the foot taking all of this.. assuming you are not trolling.
Are you asking how your soccer consistency can improve to the point where you have those "brief moments of creativity" all the time?
nigga do meth if you want to feel like that or just practice more like everybody else does. Stop being lazy and put in the work.
I dont think ronaldo is taking fucking black seed oil to improve his moments of creativity (correct me if im wrong).
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Training (2 days ago):
I ate my usual non-training day diet but added a big beefy meal right after waking up (8 hours before 1 session).
I had two training sessions: one with my regular team, and another session with a pro team that's older and plays one league above us (their official team, not youth).
First session (my team):
Typical session, I was doing some amazing/creative stuff but also making really stupid mistakes. Kept ruminating through the whole training, feeling like I wasn't doing enough compared to my teammates (later realized this was serotonin related, and I’ve fixed it, so it's no longer a problem).Second session (pro team):
Started off okay, but then remembered I finally packed my iodized casein and took some. After that, I started playing so well that I actually worried they might suspect I was on drugs. Everything felt effortless, confidence was perfect, and it was easily the best I’ve played in a long time. The coach even approached me afterward and told me if I keep playing like this, I have a start 11 spot on their team next season -
Yesterday street game
Tried to replicate what i did the day before to play amazing using the iodized casein
i still played average (some goals stupid mistakes some shimmers of greatness)could be because of p m por masturb couple hours before
in the evening i endulged even more in p m
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Today's Game:
Diet Note:
Today I realized I've been consuming too much choline through diet and supplements, so I skipped my usual cdp-choline. I'm planning to cycle it from now on, taking it only once every four days.Performance:
Played below average—made many stupid mistakes mixed with a few great moments. Frustratingly, most of my stupid mistakes followed something impressive, like dribbling past multiple defenders only to completely misplace a simple pass leading to a counterattack against us. I prepared as best as I possibly could and felt more confident overall, but those easily avoidable errors still annoy me -
quit taking supplements.
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@Corngold I am planning to do that, but I am going to keep the stuff i cannot get from my diet
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@lobotomize-me said in Lobotomize-me athletic logs:
the stuff i cannot get from my diet
as long as you aren't deficient food should offer all of it especially Peaty foods.
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@Corngold I will try it out and report back on my finding
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I can't help but feel that your huge list of systemic interventions, and ruminative (over)analysis, indicates a very serotoninergic disposition. It's so huge it makes me wonder if you are trolling, yet it is so incredibly specific it kind of feels that you are not. It almost feels like Bryan Johnson's Blueprint thing where you just throw a million interventions at the wall because you read 1-2 studies showing effectiveness without necessarily considering how it all interacts together. Talking about "PM" would also indicate that to me: it produces for you a temporary escape from the serotonin.
It is difficult for me to go through everything here. I have heard pretty bad things about Ashwaganda causing that kind of mind though.
I like the glucose water. Used to do something similar for sports.
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how would you suggest I repair this serotonergic state I'm drowning in?
I did use ashwaganda religiously in the past, didnt have any noticable effect on me(other than it being my first supplement🫥)
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@lobotomize-me It's hard for me to say since you have lots going on and seem to take things pretty intensely in whatever direction you choose, and I almost worry you'll overreact to whatever I say. I'm not nearly as intensely into the supplementation thing.
But yeah. Maybe get rid of ashwaganda. I'm not sure if that's something that has to be tapered in any way to avoid a discontinuation syndrome especially since you've been on it for a while.
Any kind of supplement which is dried plant matter (like the turmeric, which often contains lead anyways) I tend to be highly skeptical of. Some researcher finds that it increases some hormone for some length of time (on a toxic adaptation basis?) and people end up spilling tons of cash over it as a result. For instance a lot of the so-called "testosterone increasing" plants end up damaging the testicle function in the long run.
Your meticulous logging of food intake makes me think that you might not be eating to hunger or desire, but instead eating to a schedule. As far as I see it, over time that is basically guaranteed to cause imbalance, because your mental model of what you need is often deficient relative to the organ that produces that flawed mental model, and its real mechanism of desire. That, and your activity varies from day-to-day.
Correct me if I'm wrong but I don't see mention of thyroid status/temperature/pulse anywhere. This is very easy to check and can be a starting ground for other stuff. If your waking temperature is not 98.6F (or a bit higher) you are probably somewhat hypothyroid. For instance, I would not recommend eating beef liver for people with low thyroid. But if you were higher thyroid I might advise you to try some of that. Peat talks about how low thyroid makes you more vulnerable to vitamin A toxicity.
I also don't see much calcium in the intake. Maybe add some skim milk?
Very briefly:
- Actually measure temperature to help rule out thyroid-type problems. Don't skip it.
- Re-evaluate which supplements in your intake are mostly fluff. Make a plan for getting off of them if any kind of tapering is advisable. My personal orientation is to take in simple stuff and let the body machinery do most of the work of producing the necessary downstream products in the proper quantities that it detects as needed. But I'm Just Some Guy.
- Listen to yourself more than online advice. There's probably no magic chemical you can buy that will instantly make you great at everything soccer related you want. But you can adopt mindsets that create systems that produce that outcome. Spamming all of the supplements you read about is apparently not fruitful anyways.
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Your kidneys probably aren’t thrilled with all those supplements.
You can get everything you need from raw milk, meat, fruit, potatoes, etc.
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@Rah1woot Hey thank you for the reply the supplement list I mentioned includes only supplements I currently have in supply(I no longer use ashwagandha, but as I previously mentioned, I used it religiously in the past),
the ones I listed in my diet are the ones I take daily.
But as you recommended, I've temporarily stopped taking most supplements to observe their effects, and I'll reintroduce the ones I find helpful. You're also right about the need to measure those indicators.
The only issue is that I can accurately measure heart rate but not temperature, as my thermometer is terribly inconsistent(still trying to find one which is consistent).