Posts made by laoa

@ffrench my mom used to work in finance and it ruined her completely in all aspects and never truly recovered. Why do a job where you have constant stress and be subservant to assholes and have to hide yourself, considering risky cosmetical surgery just to be not dismissed. There's much better, meaningfull jobs. The money won't be worth the next mental breakdown.

Or you could wear them like battlescars, as a sign of what you overcame. Any person can see they're old scars by now, so they shouldn't stigmatize you as "mentally unstable" now and if they do they're ppl you don't want in your life anyway.
With proper metabolism indeed they will fade more and more. You could look into antifibrotic things, defirbron could be a start to look for studies, you could look into liverfibrosis reversal studies and serotonins involvement. The scars will never fully fade but a lot of scartissue can still be replaced.
I'd rather try to accept them than to do a skingraft, you'll still very much see the skingraft, if it's on your arm, ppl will assume you're transgender, skingraftscars are straight up frankenstein plus you'll make even more scars where the graft came from, like your thigh, better to not take away more skin function.

@obscuremelon well then dont mess around with serms and exo adrogens obviously, use the sparse energy you waste on worrying about serms and supression to find whats actually causing your low T, as Alfredo implies, go to the source of it. Endocrine disrupters come in many many forms, do you carry emf near the balls, did you take fluoride tablets as a kid, did you play in the dirt where there used to be a production of anything pfas and similar, did that thyroid get a bump when they xrayed the shit out of you to put on them damned braces, were you a victim of 60's parents that raised you on soymilk and tofu, you maybe work a heavy metal infested job, is all the light you see during the day fluorescent bulbs shining on that hip workfloor of that hipster startup, you sure you get you diet right and adjusted to you personally, you took any antidepressants maybe, did your mom enjoy her prozac when pregnant, .. thousands of, at least partly, correctable reasons that dont involve serms or androgens. Dont bandaid the arterial bleed.

@sushi_is_cringe
Hans is becoming more and more cringe, good for him his business is doing great, but he's not someone I look up to at all, let alone want to be like him.
I know enclomiphene is not viable long term and has lots of potential risks, even without the zuclomiphene, but I like to explore what it feels like to have heightened LH/FSH and higher androgens without exogenous hormones. I want to be able to compare.
And as for OP if hesscared of needles and supression this could be a viable, though riskier and more unknown territory option, providing he's doing the basics already.

Im doing enclo 12.5 and proviron 12.5 - 25 both ed (and exemestane 1mg e3d) as a mini pct now after a trial of physiological T and 70mg e2d drostanolone. I wasn't supressed much so i feel that after 1 week pct my balls are fully back. Original ball size, good mood, strong morning wood, big semen loads. But I'm going to keep doing the enclo and proviron because i feel so good on it. Will probably switch to topical dht when my proviron is used up to see if there's a difference. I like the tought of producing my own T and DHT. Maybe I'll try adding 250u hcg e3d in the future.

@jamezb46 at the low 25mg ed dose, it was in combination with 50-100mg preg ed and it took about 2 months to start seeing effect but it felt good to not have a rushed progress, felt natural.

I've triend DHT transdermal in different formulations, made by myself and also the one from pannacottas. I never felt much at different doses, including no obvious negatives, maybe just a bit more unshakeable by events. Also made a vitE oral/bucccal version, that one gave me a very slight calm euphoric feeling. This formula was hard to dose in higher range so never tried more than 10mg iirc.
I wonder not really feeling the transdermal dht is because of the enzymes in the skin converting dht to 3a-diol, which is a much lesser potent androgen but does have more gabaergic effects.
Testosterone I do feel in the same transdermal formulations. Testosterone also very clearly makes me less tired during and after all kinds of excercise. Maybe because I end up, paradoxically, with more dht because of 5a-reductase in the skin.
DrostanoloneP/E injections I also do feel but nothing amazing like some claim. Just a more steady, calm demeanor and slightly improved energy and nice body recomp without significant mass gain. It is something I might plan to keep doing low dose, like 30mg eod.
Proviron seems to do nothing acutely but over time it does seem to have a slight anabolic/recomp effect, also makes loads more concentrated/thicker.
Would love to try IM DHTE/P but can't find a source and dont want to bother to homebrew because of my limited chem knowledge and equipment.
Safest and most effective way to boost DHT, to me, seems transdermal T, maybe with very low dose exemestane on hand.

Thymalin or thymosin alpha

Have you read the Sun Eater series by Christopher Ruocchio?
Made we wonder about our place in the universe and the host of unknowns in it, even if you dont believe in space as it is portrayed in our society. The main character has some strong hero characteristics but also some anti-heroism. You want the main to succeed but he doesnt always and if he does there's always a doom element in it, yet he never gives up on his beliefs and his pursuit of the truth about himself and the universe (not in a boho hippie way).

If you like antihero dark epic fantasy then maybe The Broken Empire trilogy by Mark Lawrence is your thing. It's been a long time since I've read it but I remember the main character being strongly anti-hero with an interestingly dark mind. Also some gore. Should read it again soon

@alfredoolivas
Thank you
Actually I think theres room for improvement still. 10% ipm might be safer and almost just as effective for lipid disruption in the skin. I'd have to think about what to replace it with.

I know theres several similar recipes already out there but this works great for me:
Test no ester 5%
Ethanol 96° 47,5%
IPM 28,5%
Propylene Glycol 19%
All measured by weight.
I assume around 25% absorbtion in armpits(or scrotum) and mainly go by feeling for dosing, treat symptoms and not numbers, mostly 0,5 to1 ml, so between 50 to 100mg test, so between 12 and 25 mg test absorbed.
Only AM and noon dosing to not supress LH/FSH during the night, this works because of the short halflife.
Great to combine with low dose masteron or proviron.
Added in preg50mg (and now tried adding 25mg dhea to see how that feels) and progesteron only when I'm stressed.
No suppression for me on this protocol when looking at ballsize, mood, energy and libido.
This is by far not bodybuilding dosing but i gain and maintain muscle easily with 1x weights and 1x squash a week.

How to mitigate the exposure as a nurse? Half my waking life I'm breathing air infused with death, disease, literal shit, quinolones and decay. Would a personal/portable negative ion generator be helpful?
Shedding, skin to skin exposure, droplets.. This info might finally be a tipping point in quitting my job.

Edit: actually this makes so much sense. If we can analyze bloodethanol through a breathalyzer, if we can smell when a patient is in ketoacidosis, why wouldnt there be drugmetabolites and hormones in exhaled air.
That maybe partly explains my preference for intubated patients.

@Insomniac Im trialing propranolol 10mg with great succes for now. The main two things it helped was maintaining calm and structured thought and action in stressful, high stakes situations and it mostly eliminated the red face blushing I would get in such situations. Both helped with self confidence even though I already trusted myself in such situations. I even genuinely enjoyed those moments now. I do take pregnenolone, t3 with cola and theanine at the same time but adding in the propranolol gave the biggest change. Aside from being a beta antagonist, it's also a kind of weak but still significant serotonin antagonist on several receptors. I still wouldn't like taking it daily for other potential sides and I'm hoping, maybe foolishly, that taking it for a while with thyroid will make some kind of more permanent change to how my body deals with stress, tipping the favor to thyroid instead of adrenaline.

@wester130 To be used sublingually then? I remember reading this form getting converted to thiamine HCl in the stomach.
Also UK is not EU source

Ray said positive things about lidocaine for bleeding colitis. You might research on that for a bit.

Also, acute gastrointestinal problems and fever could also be an allergic reaction to augmentin.

@Stinky-bill-19 thats good temps, but not necessarily due to good thyroidfunction I think. The Vyvanse could be giving higher temps, do you smoke or drink coffee before measuring? Edit: also hows your peripheral temp, do you have cold feet, nose etc?

Yeah I agree that your liver is struggling bc elevated bilirubin, elevated albumin, high free t3 and lowish shbg. Low thyroid functioning doesnt help. As said above, more carbs and thyroid supp could help with the liver but doesn't adress the thyroid itself directly, though a healthy liver makes way for healing the thyroid (and other organs), but is your diet in general kind to your liver, GI tract and thyroid to begin with? Look a bit into Ray's reasonings why certain foods can be (un)helpful.
Keep an eye on cholesterol when going on thyroid, it shouldn't go any lower as it is now.
Also kidneys dont exactly seem super healthy bc of high creatinine (and thus lowish egfr) and high potassium or did you just do some heavy exercise or take creatine hours to a day before the labs maybe?
Prolactin, LH and rt3 would've been helpful labs indeed.
Your doctor is most probably very wrong in thinking you need trt in the future.

Why not post the whole lab? How's your cholesterol, how are your kidneys doing, did you get prolactin tested, hows your iron panel, bloodcount..

@Galaroc I don't do more than 150iu per day and mostly only take it if it was a pufa heavy day. Too much vitE has its own problems and disbalances. I also just don't stress too much about it. It's not forever, you can do better after you had a great time in beautiful Guatemala.

@Galaroc been traveling central america a lot the past 2 years and pufa is a huge problem here if you don't cook yourself. Best thing you can do is tocovit or similar mixed vit E or bring your own coconutoil and ask to cook with that, or cook yourself. Also temporarily you can just add a teaspoon of coconutoil after each meal to balance out/displace the pufa you are consuming.