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@samson I recently started supplementing with calcium carbonate after realizing my phosphorus problem. However, as I mentioned in my other comment, I stopped taking most supplements that I don't consider 100% essential, like B1 or calcium. Now I am reintroducing them with more careful testing

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@NoeticJuice 1.
I often noticed during games or training that sometimes I would suddenly get blurry vision, my voice would weaken, i will feeel overwehlmed(seratongenic feeling overall) etc. (That’s why I started looking into what I was taking mid game in the first place ) Then I realized it was this mistake that was causing the drop in performance

Exactly overall, less stuck inside my head and more actually doing things. Made me the man i dream to be for around 2 days(sadly i have to space it out 1 a week for safety. Dosage=900mg phenibut HCL )

samson

@lobotomize-me smart, godspeed!

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Feeling as if anytime I start playing well, I regain consciousness and start being amazed by my skill, and then when I am mentally amazed, I play worse

Tldr i am inside my head and i cannot get out. Any ideas how i can fix this

NoeticJuice

@lobotomize-me a couple of ideas:

Being consciously aware of your peripheral vision.
Acting as if being amazing is your natural state.

I've been practicing being aware of my entire visual field, of every object within it, for, I think, a bit more than a week now. I started by practicing it every time I walked in the nearby forest. I usually do this 2 or 3 times a day, 15-30 minutes at a time. As I became better at it, I started to practice it occasionally at other times as well, even when reading books. I'm doing this with the intention of achieving the ability to maintain this kind of awareness throughout each day.

When I am aware of everything within my entire visual field for more than just a few seconds, I notice that my mind becomes more quiet. My sense of depth and of inhabiting 3-dimensional space also increases. Peripheral vision is processed mainly, if not only, by the right hemisphere of the brain. The right hemisphere is overall larger than the left, and it's also more associated with the subconscious than the left. I can sense expanding visual awareness, and increasing right hemisphere activity, as being beneficial for sports and for other aspects of life as well.

As you've noted, you're capable of great skill. But it appears that when you notice you're performing much better than what you're used to, that awareness holds you back. So, perhaps if you acted as if it's normal for you to be great, it's just part of who you are, it could help.

There are some things I think can make this easier. If you become aware of the difference, perhaps you could try to move your awareness elsewhere. Pushing the feeling or thought away probably won't work, paying attention to something else might. Another thing you could try is visualization. You could visualize yourself playing with great skill, and perhaps that will help make it feel natural over time. Lucid dreaming could possibly help in a similar way.

These are just some ideas I thought of. The only thing here I have experience with is expanding my visual awareness, and I don't play sports. The two ideas can be combined.