Lobotomize-me athletic logs
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@samson I recently started supplementing with calcium carbonate after realizing my phosphorus problem. However, as I mentioned in my other comment, I stopped taking most supplements that I don't consider 100% essential, like B1 or calcium. Now I am reintroducing them with more careful testing
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@NoeticJuice 1.
I often noticed during games or training that sometimes I would suddenly get blurry vision, my voice would weaken, i will feeel overwehlmed(seratongenic feeling overall) etc. (That’s why I started looking into what I was taking mid game in the first place ) Then I realized it was this mistake that was causing the drop in performanceExactly overall, less stuck inside my head and more actually doing things. Made me the man i dream to be for around 2 days(sadly i have to space it out 1 a week for safety. Dosage=900mg phenibut HCL )
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@lobotomize-me smart, godspeed!
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Feeling as if anytime I start playing well, I regain consciousness and start being amazed by my skill, and then when I am mentally amazed, I play worse
Tldr i am inside my head and i cannot get out. Any ideas how i can fix this
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@lobotomize-me a couple of ideas:
- Being consciously aware of your peripheral vision.
- Acting as if being amazing is your natural state.
I've been practicing being aware of my entire visual field, of every object within it, for, I think, a bit more than a week now. I started by practicing it every time I walked in the nearby forest. I usually do this 2 or 3 times a day, 15-30 minutes at a time. As I became better at it, I started to practice it occasionally at other times as well, even when reading books. I'm doing this with the intention of achieving the ability to maintain this kind of awareness throughout each day.
When I am aware of everything within my entire visual field for more than just a few seconds, I notice that my mind becomes more quiet. My sense of depth and of inhabiting 3-dimensional space also increases. Peripheral vision is processed mainly, if not only, by the right hemisphere of the brain. The right hemisphere is overall larger than the left, and it's also more associated with the subconscious than the left. I can sense expanding visual awareness, and increasing right hemisphere activity, as being beneficial for sports and for other aspects of life as well.
As you've noted, you're capable of great skill. But it appears that when you notice you're performing much better than what you're used to, that awareness holds you back. So, perhaps if you acted as if it's normal for you to be great, it's just part of who you are, it could help.
There are some things I think can make this easier. If you become aware of the difference, perhaps you could try to move your awareness elsewhere. Pushing the feeling or thought away probably won't work, paying attention to something else might. Another thing you could try is visualization. You could visualize yourself playing with great skill, and perhaps that will help make it feel natural over time. Lucid dreaming could possibly help in a similar way.
These are just some ideas I thought of. The only thing here I have experience with is expanding my visual awareness, and I don't play sports. The two ideas can be combined.
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@lobotomize-me try to keep challenges in place. If you're always challenging yourself you don't feel complacent or satisfied.
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@Corngold feeling satisfied is based thoughbeitever
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@evan-hinkle said in Lobotomize-me athletic logs:
This is not what you want to hear, but if you’re not having fun playing soccer you should quit. It sounds like your life is totally devoid of joy. I don’t say this lightly, I say it as someone who had a similar experience playing competitive sports. I now wish I never played sports, and believe strongly that my time spent playing them caused most of the health issues I have today, (but more so, my playing sports in the first place was a symptom itself of my lack of energetic living). I hope you find your happiness, whatever that is for you. I have, and it took me til I was about 40. I hope you don’t have to wait so long. Be well.
What's wrong with competive sports ?
It increases body temperature and T3 so at least one can have glimpse of what it is like having high energy level without using drugs.
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feeling satisfied is based thoughbeitever
Satisfaction comes and goes. I suppose there are ways to feel complete or to feel that your efforts are good and worthwhile. Complacency is more like "resting on your laurels."
My angle is that this is all very paradoxical and human. People with good jobs that respect them, families, marriage, etc. can feel "satisfied" just knowing that they already accomplished these things.
Some people really shelve their past interests when they get some success in a career / endeavor.
I think reasonable people know that their "laurels" are in the past. On the one hand, it's short-selling to ignore past accomplishments. It should be inspiring to remember overcoming struggles and performing well in various areas. And some of these things are the reason people make other accomplishments.
On the other hand, you can't live in that space. For the things we wish to pursue, we have to pursue them fully. That's the main issue with people who dabble and become inspired but don't commit. In some ways this is most real to me in the form of half-assed research / writing, or musicians that don't seem to grind away practicing and playing on their own.
Everyone wants to study and read and learn, but many tune out very quickly. I've tuned out periodically from various studies too. There has to be a carrot at some point, or else it just becomes self-flagellation over some guilt of ignorance / laziness. Every skill or talent or "goal" is like this, though, is the issue. Even behavior is incentivized towards pro or anti-social behavior (waitresses/hospitality vs police, business).
Further, if accomplishments are only supposed to lead to more accomplishments, then there's quickly a problem with carrot-and-stick mentality. You end up kicking yourself and denigrating yourself for not chasing harder, accomplishing more, "improooving" more, etc. Roddy had a post about type A personalities a while back. Hard-driving types usually get results but it also incurs a lot of cortisol damage. The west is like this, I've heard, and I believe. Everything is hinging on the individual monad because "only YOU can prevent forest fires," "I want YOU for US Army," and "what can YOU do for your country."
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@Corngold when one goal is achieved another comes
satisfaction is high vibration because it implies achievemenet and enjoyment
contentment is low vibration because it implies no lust for life and coping . this is basically complacency.we basically agree just im being specific about the word satisfaction
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@eduardo-crispino said in Lobotomize-me athletic logs:
contentment is low vibration because it implies no lust for life and coping . this is basically complacency.
True. I think we agree but the words really are complex. "cope" is also basically like saying "battle."
cope(v.)
late 14c., coupen, "to quarrel;" c. 1400, "come to blows, deliver blows, engage in combat," from Old French couper, earlier colper "hit, punch," from colp "a blow" (see coup).Interesting that the "coping" pain is warring with the after effects of actual pain / hardship. Because technically the hardship comes during battle or regular living which is a battle.
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@Gardner well, I think there’s a narrative or belief that competitive sports do these things, but really in all but a handful of cases the bulk of competitive sporting leads to metabolic dysfunction. It’s over-exercise, coupled with under-nourishment or incorrect nourishment, typically wrapped in a mythos of sacrifice, (for the team, for the sport, for the coach, etc).
Played for fun, maybe with friends, sure, I could see it being positive socially, but even then, running, depleting glycogen stores, illiciting cortisol response, upregulating lypolisis, hyperventilation. The negatives seem to vastly outweigh the positives, (of course this is just my experience/opinion). Done habitually, these conditions become chronic.
Me personally, I’d say I encountered thyroid dysfunction, excessive cortisol, malnourishment, an unhealthy exercise habit, body dysmorphia, estrogen dominance, hair loss, brain injury, depression, drug dependence,IBS, etc, (general symptoms of low metabolism). I think my experience is not unique. It seems like most professional athletes suffer in the same ways, (whether it’s the weight gain of retired athletes, drug addiction, alcoholism, symptoms of serotonin overload - antisocial behavior, poor sleep/recovery). All just signs of poor metabolic function.
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@evan-hinkle worst I think is the moralism of exercise. Nobody enjoys it so how can it be good? It's militaristic, even though the military is fat and obese. Lol.
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Now I should add, I don’t abstain from exercise, I’ve just had to re-wire my relationship to it. I took two separate giant periods of time off from all exercise totaling almost two years, (previously lifted while fasted at 5-6am) and would have cold temps the rest of the day, (which I thought was “good”). I took a year off and returned to over-exercising, (though greatly reduced the volume) and got the same cortisol and adrenaline responses.
After some time I realized I was still having a stress response to it and took another year off. This time I looked at exercise differently. Exercise is not an opportunity to create a deficit, it’s a stress that needs to be accounted for. I no longer care about body composition, (I used to have 10ish percent body fat year round-incredibly well defined abs and large protruding veins in my musculature, including prominent abdominal veins). I’m now about 20% body fat year round and work to protect that “look.” The number of the scale seems irrelevant because lean mass weighs so much more than fat. I fit in my pants no matter the number on the scale, so I’m good with that. I lift weights three days a week using the 5-3-1 program and I do no auxiliary work. This means that I do no more than 9 sets a week. I don’t care about anything but maintaining lean muscle and maintaining/increasing strength. In “addition” I live closer to my life, (I chop firewood, garden, build furniture, work on my house). That seems like “safer” exercise.
I drink 16oz of milk with glucose a half hour before I lift, sip 12oz of an electrolyte drink with added glucose during the workout, (except on deadlift or squat day-just makes my stomach feel too full given the movement) and post workout have another 16oz of milk with two tablespoons of honey. I stay warm and energized all day, and continue to get stronger.
Is it a challenge to see this body in the mirror each day vs the one I had, yeah, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t. But I think that a “ripped” body is a social construct that is pushed to make us weaker as men. I also think there’s a massive dose of self-worth psychological stuff in there too like seeking external validation from a “great body.” I didn’t know it at the time, but my self-worth was intimately connected to that external validation. I sleep well, I’m a better father and husband, I’m better at my job, and I feel good all day. It’s a hard lesson to unlearn: body composition is in no way related to health, (and of course that is an oversimplification, they are obviously related to a degree-at the extremes) but it has improved my life so greatly that when I see others making the same sacrifices I used to for “health” or “sport” I can’t help but feel for them, (cause I really understand).
